I dont wanna to talk about it...*RodStewart mode on*

I dont want to talk about people's bad attitude, but sometimes I cannot afford it. Human being? Hmm it is just a word to excuse myself. But I try to reduce talking about that.

This time I can't stand to talk about that. Forgive me my Lord, but I can not keep it by myself.

I have a friend who likes to criticize other person. He is always seeing the bad side of that person. I can not see the good word about that person comes up from her mouth. I am tired hearing it. Just let us being ourselves as long as it doesn't affect or bother too much to someone else. It makes me disagree with her opinion. Every person has own unique style and personality. You can not see from your frame only. Circumstances, vision, age are some influenced things too. I can disagree as I can not enjoy something that different, but I have to see that person point of view side. They can disagree either with your style,your act, your opinion.

Second person, same like the first one, but more worse. He always gets mad n yell to his A work assistant without checking or analyze the correct matter first. He likes to send his work to his assistant and receive the correct one which it should his job desk. I think he has subjective view already to his assistant, so whatever he does to his superior, small mistakes could become big issue. But he treats different way to another B assistant. I do not understand either, how come? Both works good and bad, but different treatment he does to them. Like and dislike view already been his way of thinking. But he can hate someone then love it very much when he needs that person. OMG! It is so hypocrite.
I also should be careful to him as he likes to criticize person in front of his Big boss, reports everything he already did even though it was not his work.

The third person, like to yell and laugh suddenly. He can get mad so heavy then turn off, cool down so fast while the other is still being hurt of his word or act. But he is fair, do not have grudge. When it is done, so it is done, over, finished. But he was a kind of panic man when something is not run smoothly. Yell again, angry again!

Well, I believe everybody has own negative way that I dont like it. But I cant avoid it, I will meet that types wherever I go, stay and being friend. Three musketeers above are just some of my friends who I know and work with "some years ago". There are still some friends who have 'kinkie" type and I will tell you someday. I don't like to talk about people's bad habit, again. This story pop up on my mind this morning while seeing something annoying me.

Holiday oh holiday...

As usual I always arrange vacation while holiday is coming. Refreshing is the main purpose, clear and clean the bad,hard, empty mind, eyes and body with something different, safe and sound. Usually I will go on Idul Fitri or Xmas or New Year holiday. It is a must and it is done for these some years. When I have more than enough money, I will go on vacation on some days off - Saturday to Sunday or on another holiday like religion Holy day, or another National Day. Location is variation, but mostly is around Java and Bali. Mate is variation, but I ever went by myself when I really want to be alone, even though i feel lonely for some minutes...

Anyway, at this moment I am really confused. My office, as always, gives uncertainty holiday notice. I am always headache how to make sure the time is. They will give confirmation close to days of holiday. Yes or No. Dont you know, they ever given notification some hours before we went home. Could you imagine? How if we didn't know? We were going to work useless.

Like Christmas holiday this year. Heard that our presiden suggests to have holiday together on 24 Dec, one day before Xmas. Believe his consideration is to give space for Christian community to prepare theirself to celebrate big day. Some of my workmates are planning to take one days off even though we are not in holiday. The consequency is their salary will be cut as amount as a day they are off. That's the best we can do to have time in this special moment with all consequency inside. Besides, my factory doesnt allow workers to take on leave on December. It seems there was a case last time, that so many person did on leave and made the office is "empty" suddenly and when someone was need urgently, that person was not available.

This time I have no objection for not having holiday on xmas as I don't go anywhere. Just celebrating at church then I'll be home for Xmas...like popular xmas song title, hehe...But I need holiday notification for my new year. This year I will celebrate it with my friends, unfortunately they have much holiday than me, at least they already had holiday notice so they can arrange it easily. Me? my planning is full of estimation. The worst things, if I dont have holiday except red date, is I will take one day leave with all impact on it, psst...my salary n bonus will be cut a day, no mercy my dear.....and for sure I will ruin my friends planning as I will miss one day with them, and they will feel empty without me for a day, oopsss..hyperbolic...

I ever took a day leave 2 years ago when I went to Ria's home, celebrating with her family at Kota Bunga Puncak. It was wonderful moment. Thanks to her anyway. I remember that 2 January we had to work again, means I had to be back to my hometown on 1 January and it was impossible. You know why? As Puncak were always crowded and jammed on 1 January as all visitors were be back from Puncak to their home. We were back on 1 January evening as heard that a way home - jakarta was not full anymore. Thanks God, it was already been free and smooth but it was hard raining. Then, on 2 January afternoon we went home successfully by flight. Off course we did not let our time pass useless, use the limited time to buy some and eat some at Jakarta mall.

Have yourself a very little Xmas...

....Have yourself a very little xmas...is heard vague, sang by Coldplay on my mobile

Xmas air is already been started since beginning of dec. If you are really willing to feel it, please come to shopping centre. Stores are playing xmas music, diplaying xmas tree and accesories and also selling it. Red, dark green, white ornaments, santa claus and deer toys, bells and dresses comes around it...Whoever has money will be ready to buy to celebrate xmas, but I dont know whether they also prepare their heart for xmas spirit.

Xmas spirit is not only preparing things physically but also preparing our heart on helping each other, forgiveness, live in simplicity, stay back or return to original purpose of xmas...pure, clean heart...celebrate a birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ...

This time, to be honest, I will celebrate in simple dress but hoping to have a rich heart. Hopefully... Actually I am quite sad as I can not give more happiness to my family. I miss to buy them good dress, cakes, candy or everything that makes them happy. Something happened in my life lately makes me in hard position but I believe God understand me. He will cheer me up based on His way and I do not know how...My deep pray on Him to gimme more next year...

But, I like singing slowly, mumbling, whispering songs of xmas. I miss those songs. All I want is Xmas, The Prayer, Silent Night, Joy to the World, First Noel, Jingle Bells...Sometimes my friends is turning on music from their mobile to be heard at office together..so sweet and calm. I am so touched and my tears drop. Remind me of my life, that it is not so damn lucky as I can not celebrate xmas every year completely with family. Well...still I have to be thank to God for His care till today for me in every way I am through it.

Saving n cheating

Many ways to get rich, on purpose or in instant way. Morning conversation with my friend, sharing what we know about that, I think, it is good to be shared. Light topic that able to make us smile for while before starting to work.

Friend: My sista just bought oreo this morning
Me: and? Got gift?
Friend: There was a word inside “you are a winner of Suzuki swift car”
Friend: Is it correct? Did she win?
Me: Checking the package and I didnt see any information about gift program, better to check to their customer service
Friend: Wondering, how can people do it on purpose, put that good news inside?
Me: Of course they can, people can put inside soap bar too...smart, isnt it?
Me: watch “trans investigasi” tv program, they often talk about that cheating...
Friend: means they opened the oreo package then close it again
Me: I think so
Me: If we are careful we will not be cheated but it is poor for simple, honest people who doesnt know cheating of this mean world, then they got that news...how happy they are..
Friend: Right
Me: Lately, we often got sms our mobile, from celular provider company, who say congratulations you win 100million, please contact us at bla bla bla...fake number...then we were instructed to send some money as taxes or adminstration....
Friend: and the note is from my own company...hahahha
Me: should attack that mean people
Me: usually I gave “nice words” to them in order they awared of they are doing...
Friend: Why police doesnt act on it?
Friend: It should be easy to trace that number
Friend: Try to ask central operator friends, I bet they will be caught
Friend: Even the number changed but imei wont be changed
Me: That problem doesnt make everybody awared so there is no further action
Me: and the problem keep happened many times
Friend: Maybe we are not in the mood as police act slowly
Me: Well my daddy ever been cheated, he got news that my brother was on hard accident, coma...
Me: then the caller said, as doctor, to buy respiration tools at jakarta and offered to buy for my daddy but he had to transfer some money
Me: he was panic, me too, we couldnt call my brother, nobody picked up the phone
Me: then my daddy went to karangmenjangan hospital to check and see
Me: luckyky he met a generous doctor who understood the matter and got explanation that it happened many times...gee....
Friend: But your daddy didnt transfer anything, right?
Me: Nope, as no money at ATM at that moment
Friend: Fuiii...almost!
Me: but he ever been cheated actually, transfer 100 thousand actually
Me: when my daddy had first mobile, own mobile
Me: Who was not happy for receiving 50 million from telkomsel
Friend: Wakakakaka
Friend: Luckyly, only 100rb
Me: yes, because it was only that amount available
Me: that person called my daddy, and he said on honest and plain word “i just only had 100 thousand”
Me: that person said “ no problem”...can u imagine that?
Friend: well, there is a lesson behind that, no money help us not to spend money for nothing....
Me: rite
Friend: Hahaha, I just imagined your daddy came to atm then transfer it..but how can imagine while I dont know how is your father look like...
Me: Huss...dont laugh on my daddy....
Friend: Or maybe do old way to save money. Safer I think. No atm
Friend: Coz we cannot transfer it
Friend: another safer way to ask your daddy saves money at clad chicken saving, old saving, hahahah....
Me: or clad drinking water saving? Kendi, right?
Friend: Yup
Me: Now, save money at Bank, small interest but we got a lot of cut for bank administration
Friend: Right
Friend: Yup for less than 6 million I think
Me: Poor for whom saves small amount, they will get big cut
Me: For instance, elementary school kids who always save money at their school as school program, if they save 10 thousand a month at BCA, then BCA cut administration for 10 thousand then we dont have anything at the end....hiks...
Friend: wakakakaka
Friend: Meant world
Friend: choose rich people
Friend: It is a pity to imagine kids do saving
Friend: While we were taught to save money
Friend: Less become much at last
Friend: Now, less become ravine, hahhahah
Me: We used to save at school, school bear the cut, hehehe
Me: Thus we need to change the proverb, add PS on it
Me: PS; dont save at Bank, better at clad saving
Friend: Yup, then add *based on valid term and agreemant
Friend: Again, kids already been cheated by meant world
Friend: My kid used to save money at his school but his teacher is dishonest
buatgue_euy: What???
Friend: Kid gave his money to his teacher, his teacher accepted but they didnt write that amount at saving book
Friend: And it was often happened
Me: Parents didnt aware, did they?
Friend: parents thought their kids were dishonest
Friend: Teachers tricked that students one by one
Friend: So I stopped it
Friend: Last time I gave 30 thousand for saving, teacher already received money but no notification at book for how much the amount on the said date
Friend: Even though it was clearly I gave money inside a book
Me: why you didnt complain to his teacher?
Me: poor a kids, accused for something they didnt do
Friend: Yup, I just realized after 3 weeks later...when I asked him..as I saw no notifica
Friend: Many parents complained but no further action from school head
Friend: Actually It is good school but the headmaster cannot firm to their teacher, accept complaining but no feedback

The end! Is it enough to accompany you on morning tea?

A week of hard feeling and happyness

It’s Friday already. Don’t understand why my body drops again. Got warm condition for this last two days. Actually I got cough last week, and I am also instable, I think. On first three days I was fine then dropped at the last two days facing weekend. I drink cough drug everyday, add vitamin but still….Maybe tired of body and mind made me cannot recover soon…

I faced a bad day on Monday as my workmate told a bad news that I would be scolded by my boss due I did not prepare material for meeting and else. I thought it was misunderstanding but off course, still, I was blamed. So, I felt extremely afraid. I shared my feeling to my friend on skype and he gave me support, said to bring all my problem to God, our Lord, He will finish it for me. It was a good advice. I felt a bit relief. Then I started to pray on every single minute, asked for strengthen and braveness to face complaint and critic from my superior. I was waiting till the end of that day, but nothing happened. I just got casual day. Thanks God for that Monday. .Hard day but I could get through on it. Gee… I still had another days that I had to aware of.

The next days run very quick. It was very busy like the day before. But I liked busy even though I became confused, which one I had to do first?? So many inquiry, price update need to be done. I had overtime also. The side effect was my mood was bad. Usually I always update and comment on facebook, but this time I was really not in the mood. A friend of mine felt sad of losing me on wall. Sorry honey, you were disappointed this time.

But, so far I was also glad that I have good friends who accompanied me. They were very funny. Their words, their story, their concern, made me happy and happy, laugh and laugh. Smile and smile. Thanks guys for cheering me up….

A tiny part of beach journey to Salt Island

I love beach. I like playing on waves, walking on wet sands, looking for various sea shell who stay among the sands, watching sunrise and sunset, just sitting down to make some photos and stay still on dreaming…
Most beach offer same pleasure, some has their own speciality. I ever visited beaches overseas like Melbourne and Goldcoast. Nothing special than watching people sun bathing and swimming. So far, Indonesian beaches is the best even though I haven't reached Papua, Sumatra and Kalimantan beaches...

Last time, about 3 months ago, I went to Madura, small island in north of Surabaya, East Java. Through new Suramadu bridge, we went by car, I mean me and my friends, to Sumenep, the tip city at north of Madura. It took about 5 hours from Surabaya to there. Accompanied by beaches and sea at our right side way.

Through remote villages who supplied green color of plantation and tress mixed with brown color of leaves and unirrigated field, finally we arrived at Lombang Beach, about 10 kilometers from Sumenep city. This beach is well known with its cemara udang plantation and white sands. The sands was very clear and clean. It is liked big open field close to the sea. Divided by small clean river too. We came at about 2 pm. Not many visitor there. We did not know why. But it did not matter for us. We liked quite beach so we could do everything. Playing, running, screaming….relief our body and soul, taking a picture, chatting. Seeing small waves as it might be on ebb tide.

2nd beach are visited on next day, it called Slopeng. This beach was quite dirty. It was not good to be played on it. Mostly it was used for fisherman boats. Many boats were placed there. We were able to play on playing ground which was provided there, but this was not nature playground. Man made.

I am quite satisfy as I can visit Madura beach completely, I guess. Proud, huh??… I think there are some that I haven't visited yet but it is not famous. When I was on college, me and college friends visited Siring Kemuning beach. It was good beach at that time. Why I said at that time? Because now it is dirty, my friend explained me. So, thanks God, I had a chance to come and see it on 17 years past. We also visited Mercu Suar Sambilangan, close to some beach along the way home to Bangkalan.

Next beach was Toroan beach close to Pamekasan city. It was special because we could find small waterfall from river who is empty into sea. Good beach, clean and quite. Funny thing when remember my friend couldn’t swim but he acted he could swim, When we saw his drawned, we thought he just pretended to make fool for us. But, actually it was a truth. And the last beach for Camplong beach at Pamekasan. It was good beach too. Just because we went together with friends, we were happy no matter the beach was. But, the best is still Lombang beach.

A tiny part of beach journey in this area have already filled my experience. Journey to Madura is one of the best journey I have ever had. Thanks guys for being together on this travelling. Unforgetable memories.

Just want to do what she wants to do (short story of someone)

Heard that earthquake was happened in south of Bali made her quite worry. After called her friend in Bali, she become calm down. Then, her travel agent called her, said that pick up time would move in earlier, two hours to avoid traffic jam on the way there due 'takbiran' (tradition to prepare Iedul Fitri festival of moslem people).

Awaited for 2 hours and finally she was picked up on last queue. Sighed after been waiting for long time. Arrived on travel agent centre. Moved to bus. Good bus, clean. But, too bad, her chair was not reclining seat. Something broken on that operation. Gee...she was quite upset. But, luckily she sat alone. One seat only on left side, two seats on right side.

Bus went out, she spent her time by reading Dee novel “Perahu Kertas” until the dark came to her and she could not read due no enough light available. Fell asleep for a while until the direction was on Kraksaan, after Probolinggo. Then bus run fast, passed Paiton, some area which there were sea electric power station. Looked so nice at night with full light everywhere. Like City of Angel. She told to friend by sms, he admitted it was a lovely scenery for whom saw it for the 1st time. If you saw it many times, it become something lousy. Langweillig!

Stopped over at Situbondo for dinner activity. Good menu. Simple but good. Chicken soup, with fried tempe, perkedel, egg, red chilly fish. It was about 8 o'clock. Then, bus run again continuing it job to reach Ketapang crossing. It is about 2 hours. She didn't see some long queue on crossing even though it was holiday festival situation as always happened at the past. Thanks God. No need to wait so long to cross the Bali straits. Bus entered the ferry. She prepared herself to come out the bus and stay inside the waiting room or lounge of ferry as one of safety rule while you were on vehicles on ferry. If something happened like sinking or an accident we can save ourselves by jumping over the ocean. But nobody went out so she also decided to stay on chair and continued her sleep. After about 45 minutes, bus come out. She prepared for the 2nd time to come out and show the ID as a requirement to enter Bali island. This was happened since some terrorist issue blew up and bombing at Bali. But, she didn't do it as the travel agent officer could make sure the Gilimanuk crossing officer to accept her passangers details. Hmm...how come the crossing officer could not check it, how come he could believe the data? If some terrorist could enter Bali again, he could be blamed as he did not check it carefully.

1st DAY
Bus arrived Denpasar at 4 am. It was really morning. On normal way, bus would arrive on 9 or 10 am. She was surprised. Sighed again. ...OMG, what should I do on the said time?? Please deh......My hotel check in was on 12am. ...I had 7 hours on my hand, it had to be filled with something useful, but I had no idea. I was sleepy and had 1st day period. My mood was really bad! …..At 5 am, after dropping over by bus, she put herself on Mcd in front of kuta beach. Ordered some package of rice, fried chicken and hot tea, then she started to eat even though she didn't feel hungry. It was still dark outside. Then after eating, she started to continue reading her novel. Sometimes, she took a look around. Mostly are “bule”. People in brown, blond hair with english language as their conversation. Television also broadcasted some news and sport in english version. She felt she was around a little aussie air, like she ever had been before in Melbourne.

Tired of reading, full of eating, confused where to go. Her period made her felt uncomfortable to have another action like walking on the beach. It was cloudy outside. Sun looked shy to come out. But she could not stay at Mcd for 7 hours. It was suck and bored. She sms some of her friends, finding way out, but it seemed no response. She tought they were sleeping. Then, she decided to go to her hotel to storage some bags for temporary time until her time to check in was coming, she planned to stay at beach. That the best plan she had at that time.

Walked slowly with tiredness, entered Fat Yogi hotel. Thanks God, she could enter the ordered room without additional charge. Usually check in time is on 1 pm, but she was lucky that the room was empty since early morning. How happy she was, considering her bad condition and mood.
The room was clean and tidy. She liked it very much. For cost 170 thousand rupiahs on peak season it was already been worth it. She didn't wait too long to throw away her body on bed and flew to nice dream for a while. Was it?? Extremely tired. Woke up at 12, started to clean herself on hot shower. Then, changed clothes using short sleeve and casual t'shirt.

Went out finding some simple restaurant with cheaper price food. Bamboo restaurant was her choice. Pork fried rice and ginger hot tea was her order. Not bad! After that, walking to Kuta beach. It was not cloudy but also not hot. Sun shined softly. Sat down on pastel color sands, watching happiness of the visitors. Sunbathing, walking, talking, eating, playing on wave, many activities. Bored to sit on one position, she continued to walk to another beach along that sands. Legian beach was the 2nd visiting. It was not really crowded as Kuta, not much seller and quite clean. Then, playing on water, wet the foot with salty water. Continued again to next beach, Double six beach, in front of Legian beach Hotel. It was restricted area. It was quite privacy here. She liked it. She could sit on quite. Spitting rain also decorated that noon. Bored. She went out, walking passing legian street. Window shopping without buying.She met her old friend unplanned. Her friend called her from their car window. They tought she was Japanese tourist, hahaha...

Tired of walking around, she felt hungry then she went to 2nd restaurant with same style. Cheap restaurant. Nusa indah restaurant. Many bule's there. She ordered tempe penyet. Missed the traditional east java's food. Too bad, it was really different. It was Bali style. Small tempe with plain chilly. Never mind. Just eating, that be back to hotel to take a rest. Tired of this day was still on her. After taking bath on hot water, she laid down her body on bed. Done some sms with friends and read novel until she could not stand to close her eyes. Goodbye Sunday!

2nd DAY
Woke up in the morning. Lazy! It was cloudy outside. Aimed to swim could not be done as she was on period. It was still bad mood. Hmm, it was not good to enjoy holiday then. Could not reach news or change story with her someone made her really upset. She decided to find another alternate person. Hahaha.... she laughed by herself, seemed she agreed with her brilliant idea. Took her novel, reading it and having breakfast. Scrambled omelette, toast bread, some fruits and hot tea accompanied her morning. Also, took some picture of herself as reminder of what she was doing and what place she was staying.

Felt asleep thinking so many plans until lunch time. Took a bath, dress, then going to same restaurant. Pork asam manis. Yummy....Three cute English man came and sat besides her table. Yuhuuu...good scenery! After full of food n nice look, second purpose was going to Discovery mall, about 15 minutes walking. Main aim was finding some magazines or novels as her novels was almost on last page. Gee...couldn't find much book store except Periplus as the only lord . It was a special bookstore sold english magazines and books. Tired reading english books. Did not interest at all. Sms her friends again, and they laughed reading her complaint. Then, she went to beach at the back yard. Sat down again on beach. It was still and quite. Not crowded like at Kuta. She could spend some hours by watching the waves and her imagination was flying out there...

After buying some gifts for family, she was back to hotel. On the way to Kuta, she stop over at Colonel Sanders restaurant a.k.a KFC, bought one chicken burger and one Milo milk then sat outside. Suddenly she heard someone said...are you alone, can I join?... What!!! she screamed in mind, of course, maksud lo..sir???....but on polite way she just said No sir, I am sorry. By gentle, he left her. Good! After KFC, she walked again and find cheap massage. Twenty five box for half an hour food reflexiology. Not bad huh...Hmmm, so far it was just gentle massage, not R. Never mind...continued her walking, be back hotel, but did not forget to buy dinner. Fried mihun was her next choice. Even the price was quite expensive, but she was satisfied. It was the best taste. Why she could say that? As Bali was not good for culinary taste. La Walon resto became her place to spend a night. Back to hotel, spending time by YM with friend until she felt asleep again, with little hope that her friend could come and see her. She felt lonely. Bad mood made her feeling change. At first she planned to go alone to Bali with full spirit but finally she did not feel it. Again, just lonely.

3rd DAY
It was cloudy again on next day. Ham bread and Maryamah Karpov novel accompanied her. Her mood dropped 100%. She spent that morning by sleeping and sleeping. Cloudy and cold outside accompanied her sleep. When the clock showed 12 noon, her stomach started to feel hungry. She woke up laziness, took a bath, wore short pant then went out finding a lunch. Pork satay was her lunch. Hmmm, some days were full of forbidden foods. She said that to herself. Forbidden for moslem unity.

After that she walked to the beach. Yuppiii, she found Indonesia magazine. She was very happy, like finding diamond at mud, oh no, it was too exaggerate. Then, she just sat down at beach, at light brown sands, watched visitors were doing many things like they used to do at the beach. So many visitors, mostly domestic than overseas. As this was long holiday. After some times, she felt bored, then brought herself to Mcd in front of beach and ordered some ice cream. Found a right place then started to enjoy and read again...

Half hour running, her friend called. She was very happy. He was a guy she expected to come and accompany her for some hours, spending spare time together. Then, about one hour, he came. Just sat down again at beach, waited for sunset, talked, laughed and made some pictures. He liked making photograph. Many shoots came from him. She was very happy. She had some additional pictures, good pictures, not bored like the day before as she shot by herself. Thanks a lot to him, a good friend from the past. Even though he only came a while, as he still had some appointment with his big family but she admitted that she enjoyed it. They continued their chatting at night via YM while they were going to sleep.

4th DAY
Morning came. Laziness is still with her. Prepared and packed to be back to hometown. OMG...finally! She missed the real city, someone and life inside. Check out on 12, then had lunch first before running to train centre. Arrived too early as she did not get traffic jam like some times before. Went to bookstore for a minute, bought some books to accompany her on her way home. Bus came, took her to Gilimanuk crossing, then change with train after waiting for about 3 hours at Banyuwangi rail station. Beautiful scenery along way of stacking of rice fields and beaches decorated her time. Luckily she had an executive ticket thus she could stay at executive lounge. Train came, the air condition was very cold. Jacket, blanket and sarong already been with her but still, she felt cold. But at least she could sleep well. She put the seat off to make it comfortable. At six a.m in the morning she arrived. Finally! Tired and happy became one story. Thanks for the enjoyable trip!