Update and update

I am a person who likes telling everything by writing down on paper last time, I had a diary. But now I already burnt it together with memories inside because I do not want everybody read it. It was my secret, as I can write what I am thinking of, my opinion, my sadness, my happiness, my experience and so on. As secret I have to keep it not to fall into open public.

After that I seldom write anything and it is running very long until the social network called facebook comes. Ahaaa, I have a media to share my tought and everything and being read by friends who become my list. But lately, I found some wierd attention among friends in responding my words, my subjective thought, thus I became very careful on writing and automatically it decreases my habit to write down there. Besides, lately some friends who are a good customer in responding my words seldom comment either. Another reason is why I seldom update from FB? coz everybody will know what I have done all the time and can build different images that I do not expect... So?

When I have new gadget, I start to write on twitter very often. I have already done it via computer anyway. I can write some words only, no need too long as I do in Facebook. Note, I write long words in FB as my style and I keep it till now. I like to update status from my T coz it is simple but I often get dissapointed while the connection is down thus I have to rewrite and makes me lost of mood to do it even though there are much ideas can be shared.

I like to write under my short knowledge of everything. I have a blog to write even not much stories there as I do based on my good mood. Last time I often wrote something and sent to news and got small reward but now I never do that. No time? Not in the mood? Both I think...

Shijack?esmasuk?selat Solo?

The day was coming. Wedding day of my best friend in Solo, central Java. She invited me and some friends. We had to go. I liked it. I already imagined and had short plan about what we should do there. Travelling? of course. But, plan was plan. Closed to the day, one of friend could not stay overnight. Thus, plan was changed. By car, we went on very early morning, still accompanied by misty road on the way long there, to catch wedding mass at church then went back home after that. Again, plan was not fulfilled. We were late arriving Solo due traffic jam and a minute stop to have breakfast. Nasi pecel. It was still same product with my hometown dish. No need to tell you. Still contain of vegetables, rice, liquid peanuts sausage and soybean chip.

First arrival, went to Alun-alun (big hall of Surakarta kingdom), then went to Pasar Klewer just in a glance to see batiks. But I was not interested in as they sell also modern clothes too. I prefer to Bringharjo Yogya, more completed. Then, we stopped by at Surakarta kraton (Kingdom palace). I did not like it either. It was not really good. Dirty, dark, sounds no life there. How can we support hospitality aim in Indonesia? Keraton Surakarta as one of the stronghold of Javanese culture place is opened daily, actually, to be adored by visitors. They can visit museum, art gallery where some precious collections were exhibited such as dagger (keris), masks, leather puppets, batiks fabric.

Well, it was enough to feel sorry about our culture and history place. Lets go eating. Then, we went to have lunch at Esmasuk restaurant. Traditional food, javanese, Solo taste of course. We got the information from internet and recomendation from some friends.

Selat Solo was we ordered first, actually it was one of the more famous dishes. Selat Solo was basically an Indonesia-nized version of beef steak.
It actually looked more like stew than a steak. Indonesia was colonized by the Dutch for more than three centuries so this was one of those dishes that is a hybrid of Dutch and Indonesian cuisine. It consisted of beef steak, potatoes, green bean, baby carrot, "sosis solo", sweet soy sauce, and some sour ketchup, mixed. This restaurant offered 2 menus. Selat Solo original and galantine. It looked like beef wrapped by egg omellete.

Second food was timlo solo. This food tasted like soup, not chicken soup flavour but javanese soup. It consists of flour noodle slices, mushrooms, carrots, snow peas, inocarpus blossoms / Javanese sausage and finaly splash with warm sauce which allows to be a very delicious food to be tasted.

We also tried to eat the traditional snack called sosis solo. The shape was like a sausage but it was mixed by egg,vegetables,spices,egg, potato, carrot, oil, salt, young bamboo then wrapped by lumpia skin sheet. To end this noon before taking a rest we drank fruit ice, even the fruits was not complete, not assorted and not much but we thought it was enough to end our lunch.


The Noon run to evening then night. It was time to leave this city after attending the Javanese wedding party at Dana Hotel which placed in main road of this capital of Central Java. Some traditional dancing, traditional ceremony, traditional music and food were represented there. It was completely great. I got new experience on how Solo traditional wedding party was held. We were enjoying. Met and greeted with old friends, also took some pictures to memorize ours.


Before leaving, we stopped by at ShiJack, fresh milk restaurant at sidewalk.


It was recommended by friend.It was very famous. It was not worth it to go Solo if we did not go there. You might be agree with me. Thanks to friend who took us there. As I never know this place from web? Is it? Had some small snack and drank big glass of ginger fresh milk, after choosing the funny menus that stated on their banner. Well, it was enjoyable for Saturday night. stomach was full, energy was fulfilled, it was time to be back home.

Finally, arrived hometown was welcomed by sun rise at the east.Thanks Solo, we will be back again soon, who's next wedding party? Wondering... Even this story was happened a month ago but I am still remember my short experience.

Green and green for a while

I am looking for green and fresh outside. After getting bored with hectic of city, when time is coming, I am going out with friends. Thanks to orchid, green grass, trees, wind, air, car, driver to take me out for a while. One day is enough to reenergize my body and soul.

Just going around the hill, eating traditional lunch, tempe penyet, sayur asem, avocado juice and water, breath fresh air. Smell fresh flower, cool air and rice field.

Passed flat road with good asphalt and seeing trees on right and left.

Feelin' the nature house, construction from trees. When I was there, rain dropped very hard then it less a bit to be spitting rain, leaving a mud and water..really nature. fresh for me.

Great journey

It was very cold n spitting rain on 4 March when I stepped out of the ORD airport. Lucky, I entered the airport taxi very soon so I didnt get freezy. 1st impression of this city was ordinary city with casual building. Dark, brown square buidlings. It was not glamour, no traffic jammed, no hectic, no rush.

After some taking pictures close to Comfort Suites hotel and along North Michigan street, we were going to our booth at McCormick building to prepare some products to be displayed for these 3 days. We also did store visit on some of our customers. I have experienced using taxi, train and shuttle bus which I never done before. I have experienced in eating mexican food, chinese food, japanese and American foods.

I like mexican foods. Mixed of rice, red beans, lettuce, tomatoes, cheese and mayonaise. Yummy.
I got bored on American foods as so much bread and bread, but I like omelette, smoked ham and sausages. Also bananas, apples and yoghurts. Still, I bought mcdonalds, even I can find it in Indonesia. Same! But no chilly sauce. Chinese food has big portion. I always shared with my friends. Japanese foods, I did not really like it but I had to eat in flight since I was very hungry and thanks God I could eat it. Even though I was kind of person who was not easy to eat strange food and vegetables.

Chicago had strange season. It should come to autumn but I could still feel winter. Sun shone a bit, Stingy to show her gold color. Besides hard rain and hard cold wind, it was also snow. Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. I could feel snow and grab it. Yuppiiiii....I always wore many layers inside before ending it with winter jacket. Then sometimes I wore gloves and hat to cover may hands and head. I wore thick sock and covered shoes too.

Flight started from day 1st from Surabaya to Singapore by Jetstar for about 2 hours at 3pm. Then staying at Changi lounge till midnight to continue with ANA to Narita Tokyo. ANA was Japan airline.

I flew for about 7 hours. Then arrived at Narita for about 3 hours and continued for about 11 hours to Chicago. It was very tired actually even though we were able to sleep but it was different than sleeping at bed. Absolutely! All tiredness was gone when I arrived ORD. New place, new scenery, new season, new experience. Very impressed and deep think that finally I could put my foot there. Hyperbolic, huh!

At the 6th day, we were back to Indonesia, used same way like our departure. When I was in Narita, I bought some gifts for friends and family. Off course I also bought gifts when I was in Chicago. Not much as my money was not much either. Simply gifts but I hope it would make the receiver felt happy. Besides my luggage was heavy so it helped me not to buy anything so much. Heavy of files, coat, suits and cookware samples.

I did not directly go back to Indonesia. Friends and I extended 2 days in Singapore and left at the 3rd days. It was the 1st time, again, went to Singapore. I had no idea where to go first. Just followed my friends which were many times there.

So, Chinatown, Bugis street, Orchard street (of course! Full of shopping mall along the Orchard street, from cheap to expensive brands.) and Universal Studios Sentosa Island (movie characters like madagascar, shrek, jurassic park, waterworld) became my destination. It was not enough but at least it could cure my curiousity. Took a pictures became our main activity since we would like to have something as a proof and to be told to everybody.

Took a picture at Changi as the best airport in the world would be great honor for me. They have skytrain to move from one side to another side.
They also decorated the airport with live orchid. Not artificial. Smart Idea. Good program! It makes the airport fresh and healthy against the air condition.

Here I come again...pictures shot mode ON

Cold. It was we felt when we went by bus from Surabaya to Yogya at night of 30 Dec. The Air condition was very cold. Three of us, on the spot trip, but still lucky as we could get fine public transportation while it was a holiday moment which hotels and public transportation was usually full order.

Arrived at 5 morning. It should be at 3.30 but traffic jammed otw Yk. Never mind. We were still not able to enter the hotels room since our booking was 12am later. Bus brought us to hotel then we put our luggages there and did some self cleaning like toothbrushed n facewashed.

Walked to pasar Bringharjo on foot, far enough to strech out the legs after sitting for about 8 hours, found nasi pecel for breakfast. Forgot how much it cost but we enjoyed, even in my heart I was a bit worry to eat this food in open air. Food was not covered by some shelf. Bewared for the fly around.

The journey was continued by buying some gifts for relatives of my friends. I was not. I planned to buy it later if I still had enough money. Not on plan actually. Came into pasar Bringharjo, then around Malioboro and Mirota. Back and forth due it was not easy to find the models per requested and bargained down to the lowest prices. We bought it first as we did not want to miss it later as we realized our time was limited. Why we had to wait later if we could do now.

Next itinerary was taking some pictures as our main plan. Vredeburg fort, old building (now BNI and post office), also the castle. For me, going to YK and put myself in this area made me bored as I was often there. Almost every year. So, took a picture as our main activity really cheered me up. Honest. My friends were also great in taking a picture and they were anxious to act in any styles like supermodels. Me? act in funny and wierd styles. Bored to be nice and sweet. Thanks for R influences.


Hot weather, sun shines so brightly touched us and made us became feel tired, a bit sleepy and weak quickly. Off course. Not enough sleeping then continuing a millions walk, is it?, Hotel, Malioboro, back and forth and stop over to castle. How many kilometers is it? Just being positive way. We could be healthy. I agreed. At the end, I was better since I got flu when I planned to go on vacation. Medicine, fresh mind and body changed it. Thanks God.

Castle looked as ordinary place and quite dull. Not much interesting properties there. And also, again, tired body did not support us to explore this area completely. Already given up! Less pictures could be taken as the consequency.

When sun stay above our head precisely, we went back to hotel by becak. Hotels were far away. Not really far actually but we had to through long way, turn around as the street has one way only. It was really relief when we could meet bed and took a bath. So fresh. Even the room was so simple, 2 beds, 1 extra bed, small tv, small bathroom, old AC style. Hungry. but we had no energy to go out. Hotels did not prepare it too. Wondering, in this high season, they did not give good service. Maybe they thought we needed them more than they needed us. Indeed. Just ordering simple fast food delivery without complaining then sleeping. zzzz....

Enough rest! At 6 evening we started to go to Malioboro to have dinner and prepared for new year eve. Unfortunately the Malioboro mall closed. Where should we eat? Only mcdonals opened. We ate it at noon. We did not want to eat at 'lesehan". expensive, too much street singer and not really delicious actually. By eating there, visitor only bought the malioboro air instead of the taste itself. We also did not want to eat at sidewalk handcart. Sometimes it was not clean. We needed to be careful since our body was just recovery from stomatchache n typus, for me actually. Even some foods was sound delicious and it offered traditional taste like gudeg, kupat tahu, ketoprak. Then we just walked and expected to see some restaurant around there. Finally we got it but...OMG..it was expensive. We felt sorry for paying a lot when it tasted casual. Fried rice, small "pastel tutup", fruit juice and ginger tea was enough.

Time was near to 8, we walked to intersection of Malioboro-castle and found small corner in front of the gate of president building to be sit to enjoy the night. Great night. No rain at all. So many people already been there, had some purpose like us. Time went by so slowly. Nothing we could do except waiting, talking, taking some pictures in the dark and yawning many times. Sometimes we could see firecrackers in the sky, I thought it was as practical moment before counting down of new year.

Finally time run to midnight so fast and met the end of 2010. Happy New year!! Firecrackers flew to the sky, so fantastic, horns was heard many times together. Very loud and bright! I like it. It was like some years ago when I went to this place with someone. This time it was enough with some good friends. Thanks God for having them.

Struggled for survive began since the street was full of people. We had to walk slowly and sometimes had to push somebody else not to ruin our path. We did not want to get separate of each other and loose the way home. After entered the first street, we took becak to go home. My friends asked how to buy bakpia to the becak driver then he offered to take us to the store. We were surprised. Did the stores open at midnight? We doubted it but we just followed the becak. The driver was very anxious. We just scared as he broke the traffic rule, took us on the opposite traffic. OMG. The stores was closed, he tried to knocked the store, maybe to woke them up. We said 'no need sir' but he insisted as he said he could take any guests anytime. And he was a bit dissapointed when all stores was closed, meant he did not get fee.

January 1 was coming. Fried rice n shrimp chip breakfast filled our stomach. We went to Prambanan at 9 by Transyogya bus. Full people on bus. Far destination. Arrived Prambanan area, we had to go by motobecak, new style I think, to reach the locket. A bit far from our last bus shelter. Since it almost noon, we decided to have lunch first. Gudeg looked great but I did not order it as i wanted some watery. I chose soto ayam, but it content less chicken n vegetables. Hiks, it was not enough.I was still hungry, but I felt full to eat again. Some snacks were enough to add energy.

Anyway, we were impressed with the prambanan and sewu temples. I had gone there many times long time ago. But making some good pictures was really fun, moreover now we used digital camera which was able to shoot many times to find the best pictures. After earthquake on 2006, Prambanan has to be renovated again and it hasn't finished yet till this minute. It was not easy to combine every single stone and stack it one by one correctly.


Then we went to Ratu Boko temple, Our 1st time. It was 3 kilometers far from Prambanan. At the highest hill I guessed. It had great scenery, rice fields around the way. We could go by shuttle bus which was coordinated by Prambanan site.

Sun set and a bit cloudy at 5 when we ended our journey thus we could not get sunset images like some magazine told us. Had to accept this as this was nature arrangement. Went back by bus again. Had to wait about 45 minutes at shelter with a lot of people. At least our tiredness was paid finally. We could sit n felt the cold air. Closed to Malioboro, it was traffic jam. While waiting for, we noted some travel agent bilboards along Mangkubumi street. We tried to call some as we havent got the transportation to go home yet. I meant if we could get ticket, we did not need to go to bus station early morning to catch bus and struggle among passanger to get a seat. As Sunday was the end of holiday season. Lucky, we got it, we got it, yupiiii...My calling by mobile phone was not useless at last and the phone bill was not expensive. This time I had to give thank n thumb to Mentari for helping me. It was cheap also when I had to call mc donal delivery although I did interlocal phone since I used my origin city number instead of YK number.

Arrived Malioboro mall for dinner on tired condition. Entered a small restaurant with plain taste on their food. Fried rice n noodle. Fine. We did not care anymore. As long as we could eat on clean area, it was OK.

After that we bought some additional gifts for relatives and friends. Me too. Spitting rain outside, when we went back to hotel. Energy was back a bit as we had to edit some pictures we made these 2 days. Then, go sleeping for waking up early morning.

Travel picked us up on 7am, arrived our home town at 3pm. At the end, we had to leave this area. It was a lovely short journey even not much place we could visit. We passed the beaches and Merapi area due we had no enough money to pay car rent to take us there. Hiks. Our fund was limited due plan was also builded in very short time. Beaches could be visited next time as they were not changed, but Merapi area could be changed to better environment. Now, we had to accept seeing the remain after eruption by pictures on TV only. Do not feel sorry not to seeing the truth tragedy. Just praying for them who suffered a lot.

This time

I went through this xmas with less happiness. It is because of my body condition, no personal reason, I got flu on the xmas eve thus I could not go to church like I do every year, I mean on xmas eve. I went on morning mass. It was OK. Hard rain is happened everyday and my body ressistant is weak after typus sickness some months ago make me easy to get sick.

Even I missed the joy and cheer of xmas songs, xmas sparkling light but I thought it was not really important. Jesus Christ bornt in the simple place, at animal stall. I thought we should celebrate in simple and pure moment. Since born is great moment, thus I do not mind when everybody wants to mostly celebrate in glamour way, in happiness, love and joy in physical things like new dress, party, eat delicous (expensive?) food as long as they do not forget the meaning of Jesus born itself.

Due my body condition, I tried to take a lot of rest by staying at home, sleeping, but it is a bit bored to do nothing. After going home from church, I bought original brownies for my family home. It was quite sweet for me but I like it because there were rum on it. Then, I asked my daddy to go walking to shopping mall for a while. It was seldom to go walking with him to shopping mall as we often has no enough money to buy something there and it was really hurt for him to go there seeing anything but we cannot buy it. So sensitive daddy. I like to go to shopping mall even though I cannot buy it. I am still enjoyed that sight seeing. Ladies style! So, it is no problem for me to go there without buying anything.

This year I felt it different from last year even though I did the same thing every year on xmas. Maybe because I do not feel hommy at my new room, thus I did not decorate my room with xmas things and sing xmas songs so often. I keep my decoration warm in their boxes. I just bought some gifts for my family. I was glad they like it.

Have a very Merry Christmas!

Am I wrong?

Something is bothering me yesterday and keep bugging me today. It was last Saturday conversation between me and my workmate and continued yesterday. She asked something that coming to my privacy. I understood that the question will come up from everybody who doesn't know my family story and I always say something that makes them do not ask again. Person characteristic is different each other. Some can accept our explanation which is entering personal matter, but some will dig and dig untill everything is clear. I am a person who does not want to tell my personal life easily to everybody eventhough they are my best friends. Please asks my friend, I have a lot of close friend but only 1 or 2 or 3 persons knows my personal life.

My friend who asked me last time is a kind of God Servant in her church. She has obligation to help burden people, and she thinks I need to be helped. She try to open my story by telling her story first. But when she tried it, I refused it, deeply refused. I did not want to tell my story to her right now, or maybe forever. maybe because I think she is not capable for me or I think I dont trust her to know my story right now. Or maybe I dont feel this time is not the right time to say about that. At office, I tend to focus on working, not on my personal life as I am afraid it will influence my work. Maybe I will cry or feel angry or frustated or else.

She tried to push me as she said it is for your good sake but again I refuse it. She tried so much to say and I said NO, please do not push me. Lucky she understood and stop it and told another story that made me laughing. Thank you. But what she has done, it is already made me feel uncomfortable to go with her.

Dear God, is it wrong for me to keep my problem in my heart. Is it wrong to only share with You? not to this lady? is it wrong to let my problem in Your Hand. She felt that I am not doing anything, only keep quite, not doing some hard effort. She felt sorry for what I am doing since she felt I can do more and reserve to get more than my condition now, but why I dont do that. Hmm....it is really bugging me, it is the 2nd times. If she tried again for the 3rd times, she will get glass reward, hahaha...

When I told this problem to my best friend, they only said to ignore that question, as if you remember it all the time, you will be sick and feel hurt. I agreed with their point. It is my life, I have right to decide what should I do, who cares what people said, as long as I do not bother them. I do not do something wrong or embarassed against them, why they have to bother me? I dont fully understand but I understand something that it is Indonesia, people like to see other people fault or unusual action and try to jump into it

Anyway, God please help me to guide me through this. Believe you always help me until today. Is it wrong when I choose my own life like this? Is it your plan to send someone to ask me deeply to solve my problem? Please forgive me God as I cannot share with her. Not all problem I can share with friend. Maybe friend A for A topics, friend B for B topics, friend C for C topics and so on. I need to have some trust and confident first....

God Bless Me!